Anyone else emotionally exhausted with this "bull run"?

I've been in crypto 4 years now. I have to say today I'm really struggling. It just feels like life is really kicking my ass atm. All I wanted was 1 modest but normal alt season after all the effort and time and resources I've put in.

I bought the lows in 2022 and 2023. I've hodled. I've diversified. I've consumed so much alpha and studied for years. I'm not saying I'm losing money but I would have expected to be doing a little better than currently.

If this cycle has already topped I just don't think I can say it was worth all the timeband effort. I'm usually a very optimistic and happy person but I just feel completely demoralised, beaten down and depressed the past few months. I think its because I've waited 3 years for this only for it all to be nothing burger.