I cant stop digging deeper in the rabbit hole

-- sorry for this dummy post, I am trying to gather my thoughts together--
This year I have been learning as much as I can about BTC and blockchain technology.
I have learnt a lot about history and economics. My background is software engineering.
As an engineer I revised bitcoin years ago from an engineering point of view but I failed to review the problem it was trying to solve. I discarded it as a "slow and costly database".

Now I am overwhelmed. As a computer scientist I am really excited about the tech of all the blockchains. However BTC, my journey with BTC has been one of discovery that I never imagined, my view of the world has changed completely.
Suddenly I feel lonely, I don't want to preach to people around me as they would think I am trying to sell them something, I know they would flag me as crazy or brainwashed... I feel this need to share what I have learnt in this journey of understanding history and our economic system. So many things I ignored and I never questioned.

Have you felt like this with regard to this topic? how do you deal with it?