I miss when bull markets put me in a better mood

The first thing that I thought about today waking up to 60k bitcoin was all the people who killed themselves from the Luna crash. It's weird. What is going on with my brain?

Not just that, but this bull run feels so different, customer sentiment is not nearly what it was in 2020. It feels fake. Like something else is driving this action and I don't trust it. I knew though this was gonna happen after the ETF approval. That's why I put $3k more in. I know the next halvening is coming.

That being said I don't see any people talking about bitcoin amongst my peer groups or at work. I don't see anyone getting excited like they were back in 2020. Is there an overall fatigue of people with crypto and that's why? Was it done on purpose so the institutions could grab up all the BTC and leave us crying?

I don't know. Maybe I need to get more sleep. But something doesn't feel right so far about this bull run. It's like we haven't "shed" the depravity of the crashes of Binance and Luna too long ago. It's like it's a catalyst weighing down my perspective of things to come still.