My 2021 Crypto Story

I can't believe I'm posting this.

(33f) In 2021, I made $250,000 from Dogecoin, as well as some profits from Shib, GME, and AMC. My initial investment was just $6,000. Right when the markets hit their highs, I experienced a high of my own – my first-ever serious manic episode, which lasted for just over six months.

I had never experienced a manic episode before. It was essentially like being blacked out while simultaneously thinking I was invincible… among other things. Nobody around me knew what was happening, and neither did I. I was absolutely insane. I started posting wild stuff on social media and gained over 20k Instagram followers because of the crazy shit I was doing.

Normally, I would have put that money away or invested it responsibly. But where did that money go, you ask? This is painful…

You'd think that manic me would have gotten some nice things. Jewelry, bags, clothes, shoes. Nope…

$5,000 on art supplies and toys to donate to kid's schools (they never got donated). I left toys on the stoops of apartments in Brooklyn because I thought I was Santa Claus. I handed out Barbies to little girls on the street.

$12,000 upfront for six months of rent.

$3,000 – I bought every single food item, bottled drink, Starbucks cup, bag, etc. - every item you could buy from my neighborhood Starbucks. I also left this stuff on the stoops of multiple apartments.

$3,000 for 11 tattoos on my left arm that I would have otherwise NEVER gotten. Probably one of my biggest regrets out of everything. Just chop off my arm, please. I was never a tattoo person. Guess I am now.

$7,000 on mushrooms, weed, and ketamine.

$2,000 on new phones. I gave one away.

$2,000 divided up and passed out to people on the streets.

$800 adoption fee for a dog I later had to give up.

$3,000 on EZ-Pass. Why? I have no fcking idea.

$1,500 on crystals.

$2,000 on tie-dye clothes that I'll never wear again.

$4,000 on new furniture that I ended up putting on the side of the street.

$5,000 - I posed naked (ish) for a live painting at 3am in the East Village with two other girls. Then I bought it.

I did pay off the rest of my student loans (20k).

Honestly, there were SO many things. There's also a lot I can't remember, and I've been too horrified to look at bank statements, pictures, and videos. But the biggest?

I spent THOUUUUSANDS touring with Dead and Co for two months. I went to 12 shows and was front row for each one. I also thought John Mayer would fall in love with me if I did so. Pit tickets, flights, and hotels all over the country…

I also found my way onto a couple of well-known reality shows (not main cast) due to how insane I was acting. Some of my friends at that time were main cast; I can't say which because that's way too specific and I'm already giving up too much detail in this post.???? Let's just say I don't think we're friends anymore…

I eventually lost my job, my apartment, my car, my reputation, family, and friends. But what did I gain? $38,000 left over in tax debt after being audited (that's after paying what I thought I owed). I did my own taxes while manic too. WTF?

The IRS owns my ass, and now I'm on a payment plan. My family put me in the hospital for a month, I was diagnosed with bipolar, and placed (hopefully temporarily) on disability. Now I'm back living with mom and dad at 33. I had an amazing job and life in NYC for 10 years — it all crumbled.

So, I've been hiding since. Haven't touched social, and I've deleted most of my Insta feed. Deleted Facebook. I worked in PR, and a lot of my job was social, and now I've disappeared.????????‍♀️

I'm pretty sure people think I stalk John Mayer after posting him 14836x at so many shows front row. High school friends, college friends, work friends, family… they all distanced themselves, and I lost almost everyone aside from a few who I am SO grateful for. The tea was HOT that year, and being the talk of your hometown is never good.

In 2022, when I got out of the hospital, I took the $4000 I had left and bought more crypto. Since then, I’ve been able to repair my portfolio for the most part.

And I'm not fcking selling.

I have tons of insane stories from that year - some really good and some really bad. I plan on writing them out someday, but right now I'm still traumatized.

Wow, that was cathartic. Anyway, love you. Do only good every day. ♥️???? Get help and take your meds.

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