The saddest bitcoin story ever told

Hello all,

I want to tell my story so hopefully nobody ever makes my mistake again. I got into bitcoin in 2018 after the first bullrun. I had accumulated 1.4 BTC through the years and held through 2021 ATH without selling for a profit. During this time I became a serious alcoholic. I lost jobs and went to rehab prior to the ATH in 21. In May 22 i lost my job again due to a relapse. I would never be drunk at work but I kept showing up late (i was in accounting). I decided to get sober for good and took an hourly job for about 6 months. Oh, i also accumulated 75k in debt (CC, student loans, car) throughout the years. I was sold on becoming a commerical roofing salesman which was 100% commission based in April 23. I thought that I would be able to leverage my BTC to finance this and make enough money to buy back that Bitcoin and much more. The job was a total bust and by the time I was able to get back into an accounting job making decent money, my bitcoin was gone. I ended up still having 75k in debt and zero bitcoin. I have now built that balance back to .11 BTC. The past few months I have been trying to reconcile my decisions because they made absolutely zero sense and I essentially committed financial suicide. It has led me to therapy and professional help where I was diagnosed with severe ADHD that had gone undiagnosed until I was 33. I am absolutely distraught and am now facing my reality and it makes me want to KMS. I guess the moral of the story is to HODL and stay strong with your convictions.